Admiral Fallow - Squealing Pigs

Just rediscovered this song on my iTunes and instantly fell back in love with it.

cxs

Happy Christmas

Well Christmas wasn't all it's cracked up to be this year. 

but between the loud, stubborn, and drunken family members, I'd say it was just another Christmas.

My mom and brother just left for Ohio while my dad and I are left home, fending for ourselves for Christmas dinner, and there isn't a single snowflake on the ground.

In the words of Charlie Brown

"UUUUHHHHGGGGGG!!!!"
I work tomorrow, which is why my dad and I wont leave for Ohio until Tuesday, and it will be my last day until I come home for summer (yay!).
Though this Christmas season hasn't been as magical as years past, it has still been a great Christmas that I can't complain about. Not only am I around people I love and that love me, but I have also been receiving e-mails with kind words from complete and total strangers, complimenting me on on my 8tracks mixes and commenting on my blog posts. It's reassuring to hear people tell me they feel the same as I do this time of year, or that my music has helped get them get in the spirit of Christmas.
It's e-mails and comments like those that have put an extra touch of magic in Christmas this year. 

so thank you.

thank you thank you thank you thank you

:)

come together,

cxs

This Christmas

Normally, this time of year I'd be going ape shit over Christmas and all the festivities involved. However, it doesn't even feel like Christmas, and yet, it's Christmas eve.

To help get me in the spirit (and hopefully you as well) I made a  Christmas playlist featuring all my holiday favorites, new and old. 

I don't know if it is the lack of snow, not being with family on Christmas day, or my nerves acting up about starting fresh at BGSU.

But for some reason I just feel like a Charlie Brown this season

and no one likes a Charlie Brown on Christmas...

 

or maybe it's the lack of love in my life...

 

Happy Christmas,

cxs

Costume

For Halloween this year I dressed as a two-faced, Jekyll and Hyde kind of person.

 

Happy Halloween

cxs

 

Autumn

The leaves are finally golden which means it's OFFICIALLY autumn 

So here are some pictures I like, a lot

to fall

cxs

Braided Love

Braids. I love them.

Below are some of my favorite styles for Fall.

enjoy

cxs

Happy Dance

Playlist for my mood below:

Kiss of Bliss

This weekend I visited Bowling Green State University in Ohio

and it was absolutely, totally, and completely amazing.

The program sounds excellent, they can set me up with an internship starting next summer, I will be given TWO scholarships, and a study abroad trip to Paris could be in store.

HAPPYDANCEHAPPYDANCEHAPPYDANCE

HAPPYDANCEHAPPYDANCEHAPPYDANCE

I feel overwhelmed with euphoria.

All that is left is to visit NIU and meet with faculty there

However, I can't see how it could possibly beat out BG.

to education

cxs

wanderlust

Away We Go Playlist

Feeling very vagabond today.

go

cxs

Perfectly Parted

I have become obsessed with long, straight part hairstyles lately. There is something so simply chic about these looks. Seems like hardly any work is involved, too. (my kind of style)

Here are some I'm digging.

lovely

cxs

September

Well it's now September and I have officially gained control of my life.

FINALLY

Next week I am starting a boot camp work out routine which will surly kick my butt. This fall calls for a healthier lifestyle now that I have my school situation figured out. This link is amazing to know about what good certain foods can do to your body. 

Yay Health!

I'm excited to see my new, healthy self at the end of this month.

This weekend I'm BGSU bound to look at the school and their communication program. 

Windows down, open road, and golden trees.

This will be part of my playlist.

Right now I am curled up in bed, with Cleo laying next to me, which means it's time for bed

Happy September

cxs

Monday

cxs

Update

I've been terrible at keeping this blog up to date since so much has happened over the last few months

So here is an overview

1. I got a job downtown working at Argo Tea Cafe in Willis Tower
2. Finally decided my major will now be Communications with a French Minor
3. Quit My Argo Tea summer job at the end of July to move back home to the burbs
4. I am currently unemployed
5. Applying to NIU and BGSU for spring semester 
6. Deciding if I want to take fall semester off or take a french course
7. Pulling my life back together

So there it is. My life in a nutshell. I will try my best to keep this blog alive and well.

xoxo

cxs

I Dream of Chicago

Amazing.

In love with this song.

cxs

How It Ends

Devotchka - How It Ends

So I have been thinking lately about my old relationships and dating experiences, and I have come to realize that after every break up and "let's be friends" conversation I have had with a guy...they seem to find the love of their life soon after. I have never been dumped, broken up with, or been told "I want to be just friends". 

It has always been me that has started those conversations. 

I swear I think I'm the girl guys date to get to the girl they are meant to love. Rascal Flatts wrote a song where they sing "God bless the broken road that led me straight to you". Well, I'm that broken road. I think it's a curse.

 In terms of sports, I'm the Chicago Cubs in the game of Love. 

The past 4 guys I have "dated" all are still with the girls they dated right after I said "We're better off as friends". One is even married. 

I know it seems kind of dumb to say, but I'm tired of ending it. I want MY heart stomped on. I want to be dumped. told "let's just be friends". Eat my feelings in ice cream while my friends call him a dick.  

Because at least then, I'll know what it would have felt like to have loved & lost. 

I think I'm too tired of deciding how it ends, so I don't even look anymore.

or maybe it's because the first guy I ever dated cheated on me within the first 3 weeks of dating.

way to fuck me over, Scott.

dick.

to finding the one,

cxs

Go.

"Another year is fast approaching. Go be that starving artist you’re afraid to be. Open up that journal and get poetic finally. Volunteer. Suck it up and travel. You were not born here to work and pay taxes. You were put here to be part of a vast organism to explore and create. Stop putting it off. The world has much more to offer than what’s on 15 televisions at TGI Fridays. Take pictures. Scare people. Shake up the scene. Be the change you want to see in the world." 
— Jason Mraz

Adventure Time

Well my roommate of 8 months has officially moved out and headed to Albania for the summer to be with her family. And I will be here. Alone in the city. Living by myself. I can't decide if I am excited...or sad.

I should be excited because I am 20 years old, living in one of the greatest cities in the world. However, I feel more sad than excited. I am all alone. I see all my friends going off to have these incredible adventures this summer. Touring Europe, road trips, etc. I feel like this apartment is only weighing me down. I don't have the freedom to leave for Europe all summer. I can't be in the suburbs with all my friends who are home for the summer. I will miss this apartment greatly once it is gone, but I want to travel so badly that I almost wish I never even moved downtown. In High School, everything I saw myself doing and becoming in college is happening at a glacial pace. I feel like I am doing everything wrong. Taking all the wrong paths. Making all the wrong choices. Saying no too often. Saying yes to all the wrong things.

WTF am I doing wrong here?!

I need to make sure this summer, living in the city, is and will be totally worth the money I am spending on living here.

It's adventure time

....as soon as school ends next week...

Adventure is out there no matter where you are. 

You just have to be willing to go out and find it. 

That's the plan.

to finding adventure,

cxs

Losers

I love this video and everything about it. 

I love this song and everything it stands for.

to us losers,

cxs

I Believe

I believe that everything happens for a reason. I believe in love and that there is someone for everyone. I believe that age is nothing but a label.

And I believe in magic and music and how often I find the two words synonymous. 

I made a playlist of what I think are some of the most magical songs to just listen to. There are no words (except the first song) but the rest are purely instrumental, which are often the most magical. You can listen to it and insert your own imagination, feelings, words, scenarios, anything. I like to create stories in my head while listening to this playlist. make-believe stories that could never happen in reality, but that are so real when hearing the music. It's what makes me want to be a writer of books and stories. It's the best escape there is aside from music.

So here's the playlist. 

 I want to sleep here.

 I want my future wedding reception to be like this...

 ...while we dance in here...

...but feel like we're dancing here.

to dreaming to music,

cxs

Birds of a Feather

OMG check this out RIGHT NOW. 

Baby hummingbirds on live camera. Absolutely adorable. There are even Eagle cameras set up HERE! 

AMAZING AMAZING AMAZING

There are cameras set up on other nests, too: owls, storks, eagles, hummingbirds.

so many amazing animals to watch. The three baby hummingbirds are probably a once in a lifetime shot to someone every seeing live. Tomorrow, April 14, 2011, you can watch two hummingbird eggs hatch from 9:26 AM - 1:26 PM CST. Don't miss it if you have time. Just click on the hummingbird link I posted above.

Should be awesome to watch.

I still think this is so unbelievably cool that you can see these birds at such a close shot. 

I hope those videos make you smile.

to birds,

cxs

This Month...

I Want To...

- play tennis

- run

- make a new friend

- discover something new (to me) in Chicago

- learn something new

- read at least two books cover to cover

- be kind

- be honest

- be outgoing

- do something spontaneous

- take risks

- read a book by Oscar Wilde

- be a better person

to begin I made a motivational playlist. 

let's do this,

cxs

To live is the rarest thing in the world. 

Most people exist, that is all.

-Oscar Wilde

Fools in April

Rabbit, Rabbit, Rabbit

First of the month means fresh new start!

Let's get off on the right [rabbit's] foot! ha!

to silly puns,

cxs