Results are a Brewing

I've been doing this lifestyle change where I simply eat clean and get some sort of exercise daily along with at least 3 intense workouts a week, minimum. So far...

I'm seeing results!!!

Yes, they are very slight and many other people may not notice, but I sure as hell do. Especially in my legs. It has been a while since I've seen my quadriceps muscles stick out like they did when I played tennis. It's fantastic!

My clean diet is easy for me though through pure cooking laziness.

When I have to go to the grocery store, I have to walk across campus and take a bus, so I can only buy enough food to be able to carry all that way home. I always use one of those little baskets to  measure the weight of my purchases so it's easy to watch how much I buy.

I also hate cooking and preparing meals, especially since I live alone. I'd much rather just find something easy to grab and not have to spend the time making a legit meal. So what do I do then for food? I grab fruits and veggies and just eat those all day. I buy no sugar/processed foods to reduce the temptation and to save money. (I'm also broke so it's easy not to splurge on shit food). I basically live off of mass amounts of quinoa and brown rice, fruits, veggies, talapia, tea and water. Not even mad about it.

I am never bloated, I have wayyyy more energy, and my skin has looked its best since...ever. Seriously. I don't even bother with makeup anymore because I have nothing to hide. I also never crave anything except the occasional apple or clementine.

The toughest part was the first week because I still craved foods like pasta, sweets, salt, etc. but after that week ended, I don't even want to go back...which brings me to my next point..

EASTER IS THIS SUNDAY ON THE FARM

ughhh any gathering on the farm involves mass quantities of Paula Deen approved foods. I'm sure there will be the usual 2 hams, turkey, cheese covered everything, and the always present, fruit salad with marshmallows. fucking MARSHMALLOWS in the fruit salad...come on guys.

I feel like I'm not just going to fall off the wagon...the wagon is going to throw me off, then back up over my broken body to run it over again, followed by multiple clogged arteries filled with chocolate and butter. Curse my southern cooking family members...

I guess we'll see how this weekend goes. My grandma is picking me up Friday and then we'll head back down to Dayton for the weekend. Wish me luck..and hope I don't end up in a food coma.

to a second Thanksgiving

cxs

20/20

Real talk right now you guys...

Justin Timberlake's new album just released and it is fantastic.

I mean repeat every song until my ears bleed, not want to complete anything else for the day, learn every lyric, kind of fantastic.

It's crazy to think it has been 7 years since his last album, Future/Sex Love Sounds. That entire album reminds me of Junior and Senior year of High school, driving to Jamba Juice after school with my friends, and staying at school late to work on musical productions.

Sometimes I miss how easy it was back then, as well as the amount of money I had to just blow on gross amounts of Jamba...and the metabolism to do so.

Mirrors is my favorite off his new album

I think the ending is a bit odd...and could probably do without, but still...this song is no less amazing

To Tunage Tuesday

cxs

Epiphanies

I think I never finish things because I know once things are finished....that moment is forever finished, and I don't want it to be. I said in my last post,

"It's all so exciting at the start. A fresh new thing to be doing/seeing/starting, the images of the future outcomes, and the potential happiness that will surely come at the end."

 ...happiness that will surely come at the end...? Hmmm...says who??

Let's dig through my brain a bit...

 Books will never be finished for me because maybe I don't want the adventure to end?
Relationships never last for me because maybe I'm afraid of falling too hard and getting hurt, so I just end things before anything real can happen?

Perhaps I've been in school so long because I've ALWAYS been in school. School is what I know how to do. After all, I've been doing it since I was 3. I'm essentially a professional student (but with the worst procrastination problems). I think I am afraid to move on. I really really really like my comfort zone, but as many people have said before me: "life begins at the end of your comfort zone."

I guess now that I'm about to graduate and move on from school, it's as good a time as any to let go of everything I've been holding onto and never finished. 

It's time to finish the unfinished.

I also need to think of finishing something as ACCOMPLISHING it, not ending it. It may be the end of one thing, but that also means it's the start of a new, great, and wonderful thing.

to epiphanies

cxs

More Sleepless Nights

I've officially been awake all night, tossing and turning in my bed. I'm writing this particular blog entry on my phone so I'm not quite sure how this will look on a laptop or actual computer, but I guess I'll find out later.

Being up at night always gets my mind racing about particular things. Tonights pensive menu? Everything.

Perhaps that's why I can't sleep. I can't help but want to do better at sticking with things. The following are a few topics I have an easy time starting, but difficult time finishing:

-Fitness regimes

-Novels

-Homework/Projects/School shit

-Relationships

-Blogging

I LOVELOVELOVE starting new projects, relationships, books, etc. It's all so exciting at the start. A fresh new thing to be doing/seeing/starting, the images of the future outcomes, and the potential happiness that will surely come at the end.

However, I rarely finish anything. Relationships bore me after long, books start to drag out, workouts get dull, and school...well...I've just about had enough.

I need new motivation and right now, honestly, graduation in May isn't cutting it for me....

To the motivation-less

cxs