Sunday, February 26, 2012

Homeward Bound...Soon

The only thing helping me get through this next week filled with exams is the fact that this time next week I'll be sweet home Chicago.

My brother is picking me up Friday and spending the night here for a night out on the town of BG. (Should be interesting) Then we'll hit the 4 hour drive home Saturday. I can only assume right now I'll be the one driving the entire route. 

The week that I am home I definitely plan on picking up running again. I need to get in better shape for a 5k I'm doing June 2nd. Yes It's only a 5k....but seeing as I haven't jogged since...ohhh October 2011? I may need some more practice.
If any of you live in/near a city where the Color Run comes to town, I highly recommend signing up. 

I also have a haircut on Monday which I am THRILLED about. I need a new spring doo
(pics to follow on Monday)

Lastly, one of my favorite comedians, Michael Ian Black, has a new book coming out Feb. 28th.
"You're Doing It Wrong"
I plan to get my hands on this book immediately. It sounds absolutely hilarious and right up my alley.
& if you don't know who Michael Ian Black is I recommend watching this
Taco Party
I cry of laughter every time. Warning, He's very explicit and dry.

Looking forward to spring break and all that I have planned, which includes




& This

Now, bring it on exams. All four of you.

Friday, February 10, 2012


Anyone else here feel that everyone is advancing in life except you?
I swear every time I log into Facebook I see a new engaged couple, new graduate, new awesome life decision made, and new excursion about to happen. 
I am getting to a point where I want to delete my Facebook.

I recently read an article about how Facebook causes depression, because people will, normally, only post pictures and other things, about how happy and life fulfilling their lives may be (even if it is not the case). Thus, making all their friends see these posts and feel their lives are lacking fulfillment like the ones shown in the posts.

PSH, I could have told you that years ago.

My days feel so redundant, dull, and predictable. I often think of what life would be like if I just picked up and moved to Paris. Just go. I could NEVER do such a thing right now, but it's such a wonderful daydream to keep revisiting.

A girl in my french class was telling me about how she is double majoring in art history and French. She visited Paris and different Unis there over winter break, applied to many, and got into all. Now she is apartment hunting for a little place in Paris, and will begin her studies this fall. 

Oh, how I envy her.

She inspires me to take French much more seriously so, one day, Je peux habiter en France, aussi.

to daydreams

Sunday, February 5, 2012

I Love...

This man.

Jason Mraz.

I recommend reading his new journal. He is absolutely inspiring. Always has been and continues to amaze me day after day. His adventures, wisdom, lifestyle, love life. I envy him and support him fully through everything he does.

be inspiried

p.s. I also recommend you listen to his new single "I Won't Give Up" if you haven't already.
repeat. repeat. repeat.

Jason took this himself while in Antarctica and I literally gasped at how beautiful this is.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Questions for a Lost Mind

  1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
    - I would be 17. Confused on what to do with the rest of my life, still socially acceptable to be as immature as I am now, and I definitely still look like I'm 17.
  2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
    - Never trying. I'd rather live with the experience than have the thought of "what if" for the rest of my life.
  3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
    -Because everyone is too afraid to actually live. too afraid to fail. and too afraid of judgement. The same reasons why I don't do as many things as I would like to...
  4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
    -From where I stand now, yes. However, I plan on changing that, real soon.
  5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
    -I feel like I should say world peace or some shit, but I want people to stop judging others and making life a contest. People are too concerned whether they are living up to others expectations. fuck that.
  6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
    -Anything involving designing and traveling. Like traveling the world to inspire the layout of a magazine, room, or entire commercial a city like Paris, New York, Chicago, or London.
  7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
    -I'm doing what I believe in. An education is important to me, however, I think I am settling on a safe major...
  8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
    -Honestly? I wouldn't waste my time with school. I wouldn't have gone to college. I would travel the world. Take more chances. Just go.
  9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
    -I have been very lucky, I've been able to control a great deal of my life. However, I'm still very young, and I expect life to really fuck with me when I graduate. So bring it on.
  10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
    -Doing the right things. There's a point where I wont do stuff because I was asked. I take control and do what is right. I hope that never changes for me.
  11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do?
    -Stand up for my friend. I have no tolerance or respect for people to judge others.
  12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
    -experiment. try new things all the time. It's the only way to figure out what you hate, like, and love.
  13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
    - yes.
  14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
    -never first hand, but I feel Van Gogh is a perfect example of this.
  15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
    -College. I do college differently. I've been to 5 different colleges.
  16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
    -Because everyone is unique. It's what makes life so wonderful. If everyone likes the same things, life would be dull and predictable.
  17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What’s holding you back?
    -Backpack around Europe. What's holding me back? School and lack of money.
  18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
    -No. I think here is where I'm suppose to be holding on to an old lover...but I have never been in love. So I have no baggage of that sort. yayyy...
  19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
    -France, so I could become fluent in their language and experience an entirely new life.
  20. Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
    -I push once.
  21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
    - Joyful simpleton. easy.
  22. Why are you, you?
    -Does anyone know?
  23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
    -At But I've become much better.
  24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
    -Losing touch. It's always awkward running into them when you're out and about.
  25. What are you most grateful for?
    -My parents. I don't know many parents that would not only support, but PAY for their childs education after attending 5 colleges.
  26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
    -I'd rather lose all my old memories. I'm only 21, so at best I've got 17 years of memories. I'll gladly take 70 years of new memories.
  27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
    -yes? I don't like this question. SKIP.
  28. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
    - yes. and only my parents and brother know about it. and it will stay that way forever.
  29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now?
    -haha I do. And I'm embarrassed at how upset I was over a silly break up. What a dork!!
  30. What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special?
    -Playing outside. Whether it was kickball in the street or tag on the farm in Ohio. It was special becuase people actually interacted with each other instead of technology interacting for them.
  31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
    -When I was living in the city, attending a community college in the heart of Chicago. I have never felt more lost, independent, happy, and alive in my entire life. I miss that more than anything now.
  32. If not now, then when?
    -After I graduate from college. Promise.
  33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
    -Everything. I. Must. Graduate.
  34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
    -yes. many times. A simple giggle passing by could make my entire day.
  35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
    -ugh. I don't even want to start.
  36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
    -absolutely not.
  37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
    -no. I would never. I could blow through a million in a heart beat. I would invest.
  38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
    -More work I'd actually enjoy doing. Then it wouldn't feel like work at all.
  39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
    -oh god yes.
  40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
    -hmm....I guess when I transferred to BGSU without knowing a soul here. On my own. Away from family? That's a poor example...
  41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
    -My parents and Brother. They mean the absolute world to me, regardless of how much we all may fight.
  42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
    - That's hard, because I don't think I would like to live very long in my elderly years. If I live to be 100, I could stand losing 10yrs to be famous. But if I only live to 50...I wouldn't lose 10 years to be famous.
  43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
    -It's put best by Mr. Oscar Wilde: “To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”
  44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
    -When loved ones are involved.
  45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
    -Because success feels so much better.
  46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
    -I would be more outgoing. Which would change everything about me and I'm sure I would then take more risks.
  47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
    -When someone says I'm breathing too loudly.
  48. What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
    -well I love my family, but I have never been IN love, so I feel I cannot answer this question fully. I guess, though, we love to be loved in return, because it's the best feeling in the world.
  49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that?
    -not at all. Which is why changes need to be made.
  50. Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
    -Well before I was letting others make them for me, but after answering these questions, I have seriously opened my mind to being proactive in MY life. This actually really helped me take a step back from my life and really analyze it.

    If you have 30-60 minutes to kill, I highly recommend answering these questions, or at least read though them. It's absolutely eye opening.

    to figuring out life and all that it entails